Effass.

2012-02-11T10:09:00.000-08:00

2012-02-11T09:47:00.000-08:00

hi?

lol.
okay so hi.
today, baby had 3 wonderful surprises for me.
1stly- a rose for advance valentines day...aww. since he wud be in camp during dat day.
2ndly- a plush toy he 'made himself' at the make a bear workshop(?) as an advanced birthday present for me. it's called RABTIBS. heehe. dont ask me why the name's like dat.
3rdly- a fisheye lens as a 22monthsary gift!

i am very happy. extremely. i am soo thankful to have him. not because of the gifts or whatever, i just love him for him. i just wish we have more time to spend with each other. u see...its hard. because we only get to see each other for like 1/2 times per week. and it's not even like the whole 24hrs/ just 5-6hrs...one more year and my baby will ORD. cant wait. thn i'll get to spend my time with him a lot! i love you honey. thank u for every single thing.

2012-02-04T07:10:00.000-08:00

KAY HI GUYS!
sup.
i pierced one more.
it hurts.
HAHAHAHA.
so..how did your saturday go?!
my saturday was spent with my loveeee of course.
i enjoyed so much .
from the laughters....the hug...kisses...
idk? just a tiny gesture and i'll get butterflies in my stomach.
i love him ahh!!!
okay.
bye.

http://www.formspring.me/iqaizsm

loves.

2012-01-29T08:55:00.000-08:00

ok. HI LIKE FINALLY IM UPDATING.
im soo extremely sorry for the lack of update/s .cause im...lazy.
HAHAHA.
but thank u to my loyal readers.....well if i even have any..for looking out for updates in my blog.
so uhh...i've got many pictures to post. seriously.
so since im not dat good with words..actually not good at all, here's some pictures?
cause 'a picture paints a thousand words'.right right. and i have many pictures to post so that means if i were to convert it into words, it will be like millions & millions of words. okay.wth.
okay enough,
let da pictures do the talking.

actually i have more pictures to upload.
but it's really many and my computer will lag...right. excuses.
fine, partly because i mk kinda lazy to wait cause time check it's 12:50 am now but seriously the other half reason is because this computer really lags. sigh sad aint it.
so umm , tmr will be gym with the boyfriend not because i feel fat. yes i nvr feel fat not because im not fat but because it will only lower ur self esteem and i cant afford to do dat because my self esteem is kinda low already. average.
back to gym. so yes, im going there because i miss the treadmill. i need to run and i feel really extremely unhealthy that i've not been exercising since o levels started which is..a few months ago.
so umm, goodnyt?

and pls revive my formspring ( http://www.formspring.me/iqaizsm ) cause when i receive questions in formspring, at least i feel less bored. and because i get excited when i see an anonymous question. teeheee goodnyt errbody.

loves.

2012-01-14T08:46:00.000-08:00

hi hi guys!
hehehe. okay, so uhh, just wna say, im not yellow.
lol wad i mean is, idk why i appear soo yellow in some pictures. hahaha.
my exact skin color is the 6-11th pictures.
hhahaha. idk how to adjust the flash thingy or smth.....
anyone knows?
anyway my formspring is dead...so can u guys help me revive it?!
http://www.formspring.me/iqaizsm

that's all to update la. nd baby sped soo much on his CNY BAJU'S la!
tsk must spend wisely ahh.....

k la, thats all.

loves.

2012-01-13T09:23:00.001-08:00

gave up.

2012-01-11T07:45:00.000-08:00

HEY GUYS!
sooooo........i've gotten my results.
it's alright. but because of my E8 Maths(pathetic,i know), i cant go anywhere else except for ITE.
yeh, at first i was like super upset and all cause i couldnt go poly.
but come on, the courses i got in ITE is interesting.
so I AM SUPER EXCITED FOR ITE LIFE!
i hope i can be the top student. i mean, who doesnt hope so right.
i just wna try my best and do my very extremely best for ITE.

i mean, even though i will be taking a slower and longer journey, i do not mind it all because wad matters is, i still can study!
anyway i still wna reach my aim(which is to be the top student,insyaallah)and prove to all that i can do it :)
im not upset anymore. no point crying over spilt milk right. just make the best out of what i got.
anyway my first choice of course is Business Studies Event Management.
i really really really really really hope that i'll get that course! EVERYONE, PLEASE PRAY HARD FOR ME ALRIGHT.
actually all my choices are related to business.

okay, just wna add on, although i didnt get the desired grades,or courses or poly's or whatever, i am still thankful to Allah...alhamdulillah for everything. because i believe, we humans can only plan, but only god can determine everything. even though i didnt get wad i want, i strongly believe that Allah have something better for me ;D

so guys, dont be upset if you dont get wad u want. just be brave and strong, and be courageous. just move on yeh!

ps: i am soo very soo thankful to my family members and friends of course for having faith and still supporting me! i wont let you down. hopefully i'll be the best amin. to my family members, thank you for being by my side,for the love,encouragement and support!! without you, i wont be where i am. i really love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu <3

and of course to my Boyfriend, thank you for being there through my cries and everything la. he's always and forever there for me. thanks for your advices and encouragement, and your love for me:) i am very thankful to have you by my side, forever supporting me in wadever i do! it just wont feel right without you, you know! i love you soo much baby <3 mwahx :*

loves.

2012-01-07T09:13:00.000-08:00

today with <3 070112

YESTERDAY 060112 CCA EXHIBITION

so lets just get on with 2012.
i really love you Chua Rui Xiang. i hope we'll never have to go through 'that' anymore.
mwahx :*

so everyone has new year resolutions.
as for me.....i do have it too but im kinda lazy to type.
hahaha.
2012, a brand new year,but not a new me. Just a better me :)
monday's results.
haahah how do i feel bout it?
i dont know wad to feel , dats da thing.
alright it's 1:12AM and im tired already.
heehe. and i have cough and sore throat but i hope i'll get well super asap!!
so...gdnyt you guys.

loves.

2011-12-30T21:20:00.000-08:00

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is

I'd catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

You said you loved me, you're a liar
'Cause you never, ever, ever did, baby

But darling, I'd still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

No, you won't do the same
You wouldn't do the same
Ooh, you never do the same
No, no, no, no

reading this certain lyrics of Grenade...just makes me tear.

2011-12-30T20:57:00.000-08:00

the bus rides we had

the only soccer match i went

marina barrage days

macdonalds dates..

last year's new years eve

amk hub dates

after schooldates

study dates

my birthday!

seoul garden

the night before ns..remember how much we cried?

the day after 3 weeks of your enlistment in ns

just us.

remember we took this using macbook?

goofy times.

remember all this?

in just 2 days, your feelings fade.
then wad did you feel for me for all those 20months?
for all those months you said you loved me,
is that just a lie? a beautiful lie.

i met your parents.
i loved your parents.
you talked bout the future,
so keen to tie a knot.

before you have asked me for countless of chances,
i let you prove yourself .
but i just needed that one chance
but you proved to me i didnt deserve any.

you accepted me back.
i had you again.
but things werent the same.
where did we go wrong?

i said wads on my mind,
i know it was my fault,
but wad was 20months?
compared to 2 days.

we talked on the phone that night,
i begged you once more,
you said you wont be happy,
you no more will have your freedom.

and then you said ' think bout the future. lets think far'.
but isnt dat wad we did , during those 20months?
you said im willing to convert, but my parents-i dont think so,
so was da words you told me before,
just a beautiful lie?

i hurt you umpteen times,
but you broke all your promises,
no words can describe the hurt i feel.

you're afraid to fall in love again,
but let me tell you; im more afraid.
on the last day, you made me feel,
that all those promises..all those 'future talks' were just words of a liar.

too late, too late you told me,
but let me tell you this,
i never thought you were too late,
when you asked me for those chances.
well, love will never be late.

in just 2 days, your feelings fade.
then wad did you feel for me for all those 20months?
for all those months you said you loved me,
is that just a lie? a beautiful lie.

girls, to marry someone who is very different from you in terms of race,religion and beliefs will be hard.
if you're as young as me, please dont take a guy's/boyfriend's word seriously even if you guys have been together for very long. as for me, i was hoping to only date one guy in my life. i wanted to last forever and prove to many that forever exist. that first love exist. but look wad happened. in these days, it's almost impossible. so girls, hold your head up high. there's so much more more to discover. i will take this is as a slap on my face, to wake up from reality and believe that forever dont last at all. you thought i was different from all the other girls, but it turns out..you're no different from all the other guys.

a reminder: never make promises if you plan to break it. 'promise' may just be a simple word, but compared to your broken promises, mine broken promises to you dont hurt as much.
sigh. for now, my heart is closed even though i admit, there's still an inch of love left.

loves.

2011-12-30T10:39:00.001-08:00

in life, you should always remember
1) Allah
2) Family
3) The ones who were there for you when you were at the lowest.

2011-12-30T09:22:00.000-08:00

too late. you said it's too late for me. so why should i hang on?

KAU BODOH PE. lol. kidding.

2011-12-30T08:26:00.000-08:00

YAY IM SO GLAD YOU'RE GNA GET YOUR FREEDOM AND HAPPINESS!
tmr. cant wait for tmr. heeheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
HAPPY ADVANCED NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE! and never ever eveeer let one person ruin your day.
heh, yupps, he had no more love for me. if he's with me,there'll be no happiness nor freedom forrrrrrrrr him.
hhhah so funny ryt, just 2 days ago i was your happiness but 2 days pass and TADAAAAAAAA!
lol. k la enough bout you.
just a reminder: sometimes you gotta think for yourself and be selfish. your happiness will always come first.
xie xie ni dajie Ain<3 for consoling me.....fuck cant believed i just begged a guy?! i cried like a fucking whale lol. k no link. byeeeeee.

mwahx mwahx:*

2011-12-30T08:19:00.000-08:00

u cant accept me when im at my worst? sure you dont deserve me at my best. you dont deserve a girl like me :) you lost me, i didnt lose you.
hahahahah it's like i cried so much, loved you with all my heart, do everything out of love, but look wad i got?
k la..cant force love. gave u soo many chances. i begged you twice....i didnt get a single chance.

so girls, listen to me! be strong. cry your heart out. you will feel so good after dat! cause in life, you're so gna meet these kinda boys. but who gives a heck?
i remind you again, a guy who doesnt love you...dont deserve your heart!
just wna tell you, HAPPY NEW YEAR i will survive like how u survived 2 days without me ;)
teheeeeee

and dont beg me. cause when i beg you, did you spare a thought for me?

YOU JUST LOST A GIRL WHO LOVED YOU WITH ALL HER HEART.
hope you wont ditch other girls..yeh. cause what goes around,comes back around.

loves.

2011-12-28T21:13:00.000-08:00

this shall be my motivation from now onwards :)

2011-12-28T20:58:00.000-08:00

hi guys. it's 12:47pm now. gotta head to school around 1:45pm...to get my eagles award.
hahhh yay $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$!

k la. so imma sidetrack abit here. although i knw i dont wna bore u guys with sad stories...sad posts and all, but right now i have no one to pour out my feelings to..apart from my sister.
but i seriously hate liars.
i mean what makes people think that lying wouldnt make someone angry right. i mean angrier.
sigh. k la, i have lied before...but if u dont want me to lie,why not u stop lying first right.
right now, just need time alone to get used to being just by myself. blame myself, for being too dependent. sigh writing this out is already making me tear.
keep telling myself, life doesnt revolve around you only.
that i can survive...i mean i will survive.
hhaha whether you're reading this is or not, i knw you'll only gna say that im selfish.
but i dont give a fuck.
i find that even though i have a life, i just dont live my life. i have to start thinking about myself.
hais. seriously, i cant wait to start studying again. so i can keep myself occupied.
i wonder if holidays is a blessing or a curse.
cant wait for 2012.
cant wait for school.

what i dont understand is, even though we're friends, doesnt mean i cant care and advise you...or discourage you to go to certain places..knowing the person you are, i have the rights as a good friend to give you such advises. and by doing that, it really shows dat i still care. but you took it wrongly. ' we're just friends what. so why do you care? ' this sentence keeps playing in my head. let me tell you, really, it's because we're friends dat i care. i advise you, but if u dont wna take my advice thn just go ahead.
ah wadever it is, you can consider everything to be over already.
im gonna move on with my life..even though i knw it's gna be tough for me. even though i knw you wont completely banish and dissapear from my heart..memories will forever stay. and for da last time, im gonna tell you this, i still love you.

if only you would understand.

SORRY IF I BORE YOU GUYS WITH THIS PATHETIC POST.
but have a kind heart. hahahaha k wads da link.

loves.

2011-12-28T00:34:00.000-08:00

HI GUYS!!!
i just posted a new cover. i made a cover of Turning Tables by Adele.
you can view it in my facebook profile yeh!

some pictures.

both are taken today cause im super bored.
mehhhh..

k la i really dont knw wad to blog about,
my blog is so fucking dead. same as my formspring lol.
imma chaooooooo now.

heheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee goodbye and have a lovely day you lovely people.

loves.

2011-12-09T20:20:00.001-08:00

Hello guys!
okay so one of my friends who prefers to be Anon posted this on my formspring .

Hey, I'm not the anon that asked for the selling post, but what you posted was more of a haul and review. A selling post is to sell your preloved items, such as clothes etc. Loved the haul and review though <3 i'm your friend but I'll stay anon for now :P

omg i seriously feel like a moron la! hahahah. sorry to the Anon who wanted a selling post. i've got it wrong! okay so a selling post will be up by next week.....that is if i can find any items i would like to sell. or maybe i shud hold up a Giveaway right! hahahahah. but wait for it. be up by nxt week i promise ;)

and thank you to the anonymous friend for correcting me! appreciate it babe <3

ask/tell me anything @ http://www.formspring.me/iqaizsm

loves.

2011-12-08T08:03:00.001-08:00

Hello guys! I just posted a random cover (jar of hearts) in my Facebook a/c . Listen to it if u wna . Its just for da fun of it anyway. Lastly, enjoy :D

2011-12-07T01:11:00.001-08:00

http://www.formspring.me/iqaizsm

Haul and Review.

2011-12-04T23:14:00.001-08:00

okay i think this is how a selling post looks like...right?
so here you go, Anon!

facial peel off cucumber mask! okay i cant really say much cause i just bought it ytd. but i heard cucumber is really good for your skin :) I just used it yesterday night. it's this glue-like gel kinda thing. and it smells really good surprisingly! so you have to leave it on for about 5-10 mins. and it dries up real fast! it's not a hassle at all to peel it off cause it's easy to come off. after washing my face ,it really feels refreshing and my skin is very silky and soft and smooth! i didnt say dat just cause it's written at the back of the product okay. it's for real :) with it's long lasting effect, it's affordable and only cost $8.20. you can find it in Guardian! and i'll have to rate this product 8/10 .

as you can see, this hair product is called Essence. unlike th the previous product, i have used this since last year! thanks to my mother for introduing it :) so to use this product, you have to appl it after drying your hair. it's just this not too thick liquid. the smell's good. it makes your hair smooth and not frizzy! i mean if your hair is super frizzy thn it still leaves ur hair a lil frizzy but not as much! it cost $38. i usually buy it at Ang Mo Kio central K1 SALON! i have no idea where else to get it. kinda expensive to me, but the whole bottle can last for 2-3months.a 9/10 DEFINITELY!

i have been using this product for around 2-3months? i use it when i have acne. it is this green color coarse sand like substance. it looks gross but it is not smelly at all. it helps in preventing acne occurrence on my face. like hen i have pimple(s) on my face, i apply this to my face and after it dries and after i wash it up, the next day, either the pimple will be gone or it is not as visible! it is affordable and it cost around $10-11. yes i definitely recommend this product as it not only helps in reducing my pimples,it also leaves your skin feeling smooth :) i'll rate this product 8.5/10 .

if you loveeeee perfumes, i suggest you get this one! it is Juicy Couture. and it is really small. it's not the kind of spray pefume but to use it, you have to dab it instead. although it is small, it last for quite a long time as you onl need to dab a fewm times and th smell would already be super strong! it smells sweet...but not too sweet? like, the small wud definitely not annoy anyone. i got it for free so i have no idea how much i is! this perfume...i'll rate it 9/10 .

okay this is the acne patch! im not sure of the price though cause boyfriend gave it to me :) okay that was out of point. you can find it in any beauty stores! so the point is, you knw when u see an acne and you're dying to just squeeeze it out?? but then you're afraid of leaving any acne scars which may last forever? well this would definitely help! because sometimes ur pimple might not be ripe enough for you to squeeze out. so when you put this on, it helps to ripen ur pimple! so without using much effort, you are able to squeeze out the yellow-thingy. and the yellow thing will come out and you dont even have to use like a lot of force! however, sometimes, i think your pimple might be too stubborn and thus, this wont help. therefore, to me this product is just 7.5/10 .

this is a maybelline product! it is a gel-liner. i used to detest gel liners cause i thought it was hard to use and kinda hassle. but after trying it for the first time, i absolutely love it! it're really realy dark and you know sometimes when you use liquid liners and when it dries up,it becomes kinda glossy...for this one, it looks really matt and not glossy. if you're good at painting,i am really really sure you will do a very good job in drawing the perfect eye liner for your eyes:) it costs $19.90and it's worth it cause it can last for long. you an find it in any beauty stores. but the only bad thing is that when you remove the eyeiner and wash your face with the facial wash, there will be kinda like a smudged black stain under your eyes which will not go away until the next day when u wash ur face again. thus, this product will be given an 8/10 .

if you have dark eye rings or slight eyebags....this is your solution! however, i have to say that it does not provide complete full coverage. yes it's a compact make up but i use it to hide my dark eye rings. it helps in reducing the visibility. it will last for very very long as it is able to hide your flaws even by using a very small amount of it. it cost around $20++ ! can be found in any beauty stores too :) i'll rate this product 8/10. tip:use a brush instead of the sponge to conceal your dark eyerings/ eyebags so as to be more precise.

i use this like all the time whenever i head out! it's long lasting. the color is really pretty :) you just have to put a little amount and the color stands out already. however it doesnt come with a blusher brush. the color will stick on your face for as long as you dont remove it. what i like bout it is the color looks natural...well it's more like depending on how da color is. easy to remove. and it doesnt look smudgy..you know? i'll give it a 9/10 !

very cheap angle brush!! it's soft ad very precised. i use it for my eyebrows. like to make your eyebrow stand out even more, use the brush, apply some concealer on the brush, and then apply it on the outer of your eyebrow. k im so bad at explaining but i hope you get what i mean yeh! it's $3.90 and it can be found in any cheap department stores like Pink Beauty! 9/10 !!

this is my all time favourite mascara ! i think you can find it anywhere; guardian,watsons etc etc. unsure how much it is but i think iit should be lesser than $20 ? it sits on your eyelashes well and it is waterproof! doesnt smudge even if your face touches the water. it does volumize the eyelashes but the effect is kinda minimal . anyway i love it becauseof the 'brush'? like it's very precise(omg how many times have i used that word) ! one coat is enough anyway. too much of coating will make your eyelash look too congested or smth. 8.5/10

before i use the Maybelline gel eyeliner, i have been using the FUSO liquid eyeliner. VERY CHEAP it costs only like $5 bux or so. can be found in SINMA or smth. really dark too but the only thing i hate is that when it dries up, it looks glossy and not matt...unlike the maybelline gel liner. the brush is not as soft and therefore, when you apply eyeliner, itdoesnt get too wobbly. too wobbly=being a mess. It's good, affordable...definitely your ideal eyeliner if you're tight on your budget! rate this 7.5/10!

the thing that i love about this lipstick is that it has a lil bit of oil. so your lips wont be too dry. the color sticks on your lips for very long. and it is easy to remove when thr's a slight mistake! but if you keep on pursing your lips repeatedly , then it will get kinda irritating as your lips will get dry and the dry skin of your lips will get peeled off along with the lipstick. aint sure of the price thought. i will rate this 6/10 only because i rarely use lipstick !

so that's it! i hope this is how a selling post will look like. heeehee. ask me questions at formspring http://www.formspring.me/iqaizsm

loves.

2011-12-04T22:34:00.001-08:00

hello guys . this picture is just to sum up some of my previous days! heehe. next post wud be a selling post!
and i have no idea whysome pictures turned out weird in this post.
but still, enjoy :)

2011-11-18T07:47:00.001-08:00

hello heellloo heeeeelllooooooooooo!
omgah so i tmr i'll buy my prom dress...earring...shoe...make-up!
HAAHAHA.
cant wait. hoping the dress's still there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
pls god help me alryt.amin.
so i went out with baby today.yes HE IS BACK and im the HAPPIEST girl on Earth!
okay ......................let da pictures do the talking aye?

hhahh.
so monday is gna be hair treatment day! weeeehooooooooooooooooooooo :)
idk why i cant wait. probably cause my hair's kinda damaged. so it deserves some retail therapy . HAHA.
alright. let's all just patiently wait fooooor ...MONDAY.
loves.

2011-11-15T00:51:00.001-08:00

YAY!
guess what guys.................i've dyed my hair!
well it's not some crazy or wild color ...more of a you cant see da color dat much under no light but much of it under the light! hahaha.
of course....................the color.............is..............................red.................somehow sort of brownish.
HAHAHAHAHA.

hehehe creepy much???
and those pictures are taking with flash but if it aint taken by flash, it's really dark lol.
so yesterday midnight.............................
my.................dad.............................
decided to................................................................
make................................................................
a....................b.................bbir.................................................birthday surprise for my mom!
hahahahah.
she was all grumpy when dad woke her up . keeps on spouting 'what?!' LOL.
then sister bro and i came out of the kitchen and sang a birthday song for her!
well we ordered pizza too!
yes pizza and cake at midnight taste better for no reason .
and my sis insisted dat the pizzaman do not knock on da door.
and he and another guy just stood in front of the house?
hhaah soo funny. they looked so clueless laaa.

well i just wna wish my mom a very Happy Birthday!
i hope you enjoyed da midnight bday surprise.
May you live for very very very very very loooooooooooooong and healthy and blessed with full of happiness! God bless you and i love you so very extremely much <3

on a side note: baby's coming back in 3days omg exciting much?!

loves.

i wna dye my hair but i have no idea wad color? any suggestions?

2011-11-13T08:33:00.001-08:00

2011-11-12T22:48:00.001-08:00

aye ayeeeeeee i miss my long...(well not dat long)haiiiiiiiiirrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.................................
wish i didnt cut it meeh.
but here's some pictures to sum up my day ytd at the variety show!
the girls were great :)
nawwww it will take sucha long time for da vid to upload boohhoooo ;(

here u go.

dats all!

i've no idea why i cant seem to upload the video....

and thanks to Syamim for accompanying me :)

loves.

i miss mah babyboy

2011-11-10T07:57:00.001-08:00

2011-11-09T22:34:00.001-08:00

helloooooo everyone! so..............firstly. imma talk bout make up here since prom is coming and i really dont know why im so excited over eyeshadow palette(s)?
dont mistake me.........i mean after watching youtube vids on tutorials i suddenly have this ummm thing for cosmetic?
yes i dont really mind wad people think like 'wah so young wna wear make up......'
hahaha firstly, doesnt mean you aint real if you put on some make up isnt it?
i mean people say you wear make up cause you're ugly? nahh i dont think so. i think everyone's beautiful in their own way and putting on makeup is just to further enhance your features :)
ell dats wad i personally feel.

soooooooo......................i saw Sofia Dendroff's vlog well you shud check it out so here's da link
http://youtu.be/1zohzLLhXm8 .

yea see the eyeshadow palette? she boughtit at Sephora but i went there a few days ago...and i guess they dont have that kinda palette which has super many colors anymore :(
i dont wna buy those individual ones cause it's kinda a hassle and a waste somehow. i mean if you have a big one....which inccludes lip colors and blushers thn it's like better . like all-in-one you see.
so umm i went to http://www.cherryculture.com and god.............so many eyeshadow palettes and da best part is.it's soo affordable!
but thing is, i really wna purchase it but i dont knw if the colors are matt or shimmer.
i prefer matt.
i dont mind betting my money on it and hoping it's matt.
i guess i'll buy online if i have no other choicebut PLS if you knw where to get it ,preferably Sephora brand or NYX do tell me .

so lemme show you the palatte im considering to purchase.

i love the first one though . it has like all in one.
so MAYBE (most likely) if im unable to get it anywhere in Singapore thn i might have to purchase it online.

so i guess dats all.

soooooooooooooooo...................if you have anything!anything.....anything to like tell me which brand is good...or the cost of it and where i can get it etc etc pls post at my formspring http://www.formspring.me/iqaizsm

thankssssss.
loves .

2011-11-05T00:33:00.000-07:00

friendship.

these 4 years, i wouldnt have successfully went through it without my friends. well yea, along the way, you might lose a few friends but thn gain new ones. it is hard to find true friends though...a friend who would be there for you,the one you can talk to for hours on the phone,a friend who would listen to, just someone whoo you can really build a concrete base of friendship.

it's rather better to have few around you thn to have too many. too many=trouble/complications.
you see, you cant really knw how the person is really like or really thinking bout you even though she/he is kinda close to you .friendship is like gambling . it's either you're lucky enough to get the right friend or the wrong one.

if you put to much trust in someone, you might get hurt. but if you put too little, you might also get hurt. see,it's like gambling . but i guess the only one you can rely rely on is your family....or better still...yourself.

i believe that it all depends on an individual. if you wna be treated well,you have to take the first step to treat the other well. otherwise......it wud be kinda stupid wudnt it? you treat the person bad and da other treats you good..well dat's just nonsensical and doesnt exist .
but nowadays...true friends are hard to come by. maybe they're no more in existence?

maybe...for now, let's just appreciate the loved ones before it's too late! dont let one mistake ruin your relationship with your family or friends.

loves.

2011-11-04T00:32:00.000-07:00

holaaaaa guys!
so firstly im b0r3d so kindly post anything...yea ANYTHING on http://www.formspring.me/iqaizsm

soo yay o levels has 'unofficially' ended. the reason why it is unofficial is cause i still have 2 more papers which i find kinda laidback like my art paper and also science mcq paper .
so let me review on my o lvl papers before posting some random photos.

english- the letter was weird as to me, it needed some 'weird' criteria? and i guess i pretty much screwed it a lil.....i just hope i wont fail. cause i need english.well it's a must. for my composition,i've nth much to say but to just hope i kinda get 20 and above. for the comprehension, kinda easy but tricky! overall for english, just hope i'll do well. if i dont do well, it's okay cause i hope i can depend on oral . just hope i pass!

for maths- paper 1 i had some....someeeeeeeeeee confidence dat i'll pass but paper 2...nahhhhh. guess i've pretty much screwed up?

science- just hope i pass.

ss- it was okay! i guess i lost some marks here and thr but aint daaat bad...hope i get a distinction? or B at least yeh?

geography- i think i can pass ! do well??? maybeee.................... just hoping datmy comb. humanities will be a B at the very least. i mean a B3 to be specific .

so here's wad happened.
as you knw,we have to bet 'our lifes' on ss. if you studied the right topic thn good for you! if you dont...thn too bad?
so in the morning while i was on my way to school , i was waiting at the us stop reading up my ss book... i was praying to Allah to give me a sign of which topic wud come out for o lvl. the wind blew. so my book from being open...became close . and thn i saw a folded page ..i opened it up and it was on one of the causes on the topic Sri Lanka! so i kinda like had da feeling that it wud come out for o lvls and pretty lucky, it did! thank Allah :) alhamdulillah .

i just hope i'll do well for my o lvls, if not...it's alryt. thr's always a way to success.
ahh, must be getting bored arent you? here you go...some photos i captured during the past few days. enjoy.

love this one (below)

love this one even more aha

this chicken thing is super nice i swear! and i recommend the Mint flavor. remember to remind the auntie/or whoever to put the mint sauce and mayonnaise on the chicken. it's 3for5bux anyway. totally worth it. annd by 3,i mean 3sticks so you'll get 9 super yummy chicken! anyway the shop's located at 313 somerset at the lowest basement level where the whole lot of stalls sells food. it's near Chewies/Chewy ?
till here, loves.

2011-10-30T04:35:00.000-07:00

hahaha wtf really?!

whoaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

so yea i have 2 days to study for chemistry and geography oh my god i'll probably end up in ite or iin some art school example Laselle .
but i dont wna end up there .
i dont wna talk bout o levels cause just cause.
so today, i was craving sooo badly for Ramen Ten's Tom Yum chicken dry ramen and thank god baby is so super duper nice (as always) and accompanied me thr!
i love you so much :)

so uhh, no o levels tmr and guess wad...... thursday's gna be the dayyyyyyy where o lvl is (un)officially over apart from my art paper and mcq science paper.
cant wait for it all to be over and then imma probably work at TOPSHOP oooh yea buddy.
i'll go off now .
loves.

2011-10-29T08:08:00.000-07:00

have a safe trip to Taiwan dear! bring back lots of shopping bags for me k ;p
heehe. i love you <3 mwahx :*

2011-10-25T04:23:00.000-07:00

dat pretty much sums up my day!

& to this lady Lin , work hard! stay happy and cheerful ;) loves <3

so i did a few covers today... and im intending to make some vlog after sucha long.....absence.
i need some new suggestions/topic so dat i can start doing a vlog again!
so PLEASE post any suggestions dat you have in mind and post it to http://www.formspring.me/iqaizsm
thanks ;)

2011-10-23T04:33:00.000-07:00

god how long have i not updated?!
anw tmr is o lvl english paper and i friggin wna get a distinction . god bless me :> amin .
so some pictures taken by me and baby's new toy....G12!

and congrats baby cause he passed his basic theory test! good luck for your final theory test ;)
hugs and kisses.

and good luck for those taking the o levels :)

2011-08-15T08:34:00.000-07:00

my small qtp cousins

<3 my sissy

im kinda _______.

first 2 - qtp cousins
last 2 - qtp neighbours

2011-08-08T10:09:00.000-07:00

still awake gna sleep soon yay !

2011-08-08T07:31:00.000-07:00

so my life is/has been / have been potassium .
anyway , happy birthday Singapore !

2011-07-27T06:06:00.000-07:00

misses .

2011-07-25T05:34:00.001-07:00

need to do eng compo .
need to study POA on Partnership .
need to study Maths .
need to study Geog(?) .

3mths and everything is over .
cant wait for it to be over . i want to leave dat skool so bad .

2011-07-11T09:16:00.001-07:00

yay VLOG NO.3 is up ! do post comments/suggestions to http://www.formspring.me/iqaizsm :)
thanks and enjoy ~
ps : use a earpiece/headset to listen to the audio . sorry for the volume .

2011-07-09T23:51:00.000-07:00

hello readers ! been a long time isnt it ?

so how are you all ?
life's been just fine for me these day . gna graduate soon !
exciting - yet i've got a mixture of feelings running in me .
been having no time left to do my vlog . but i promise , if i have the time i'll make one soon !
it's a sunday . and i've got nth much to do .

help me kill my boredom - http://www.formspring.me/iqaizsm

2011-07-04T05:59:00.000-07:00

great time at zouk with the girls , & loving the new friendship(s) made .

2011-06-19T10:41:00.000-07:00

kekeke baby POP soon ! i cant wait :)
and hopefully he loves my gift(s) .
i love you dearly <3

2011-06-17T05:56:00.000-07:00

HAPPY SWEET BITTER SOUR SALTY 19TH BDAE LOVERBOY <3
kekeke . misses .
xoxo

2011-06-15T22:36:00.000-07:00

vlog no.2 is up !
topic is on Product reviews .
enjoy & pls feedback to http://www.formspring.me/iqaizsm !

hahaha , i do not knw if this is called a product review cause all i can say is , GREAT !
but pls , do post more suggested topics dat you have in mind for me to do . my ears are listening and im waiting .
tataaaaa

2011-06-15T08:10:00.000-07:00

thank you for the suggestion posted in formspring by the anonymous :)
appreciate it ! will definitely do a vlog regarding da suggested topic .
pls post more suggestions to http://www.formspring.me/iqaizsm

2011-06-15T07:54:00.003-07:00

bf : i think im going to fall sick soon
me : ok la go sleep
bf : no , i said im going to fall sick
me : why ?
bf : im going to fall sick
me : wad ?
bf : lovesick .

and i laugh . & you laughed too .
qtp.

2011-06-14T23:47:00.000-07:00

soo after posting my first vlog , i have received compliments & of course , critics.
but it's alryt because the compliments is wad encourges me to both blog & do more vlogs . And the critics is what will make myself improve .
so in all , THANK YOU <3
hopefully more people will continue to watch my upcoming vlogs !

alryt , so this is it .
i need some topics that YOU may want me to do for the next upcoming vlog no.2 .
so i need Suggestions .

feel free to submit your suggestions to http://www.formspring.com/iqaizsm !
thanks and i'll be waiting for your suggestions :)

2011-06-14T08:45:00.001-07:00

VLOG NO.1 IS UP !
ENJOY

2011-06-14T03:59:00.000-07:00

yay deedoo i have a vlog !
feedback me @ http://www.formspring.me/iqaizsm

2011-06-12T21:58:00.000-07:00

so intrstd in doing vlog's !
should i ? should i not ?

2011-06-06T07:56:00.000-07:00

dont knw if wad i did was right or wrong .
hope you can wait , just like how i've always waited for you .
miss you terribly ...
i've lost myself , & now im trying to find me back

2011-05-31T03:52:00.001-07:00

miss you <3

2011-05-28T06:48:00.000-07:00

been a long time since i took a picture with my polaroid

2011-05-28T06:38:00.000-07:00

today <3

2011-05-17T08:41:00.000-07:00

what matters to me most is your smile , your laughter & joy and of course you're happiness :)

i ♥ you.

2011-05-17T08:16:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday to the most repected & loved man in my life , my dad <3
i love you from the bottom of my heart .
may you live super super super long & blessed with a healthy & happy life .
hugs *

2011-05-11T06:59:00.000-07:00

Kapwa lumuluha kapwa nasasaktan
Bakit tinitikis parin ang isa't isa
Lagi na lamang bang ganito ang buhay natin
Di na matitiis paghihirap ng dibdib
Sanay nadarama mo rin ang paghihirap ko
At sana'y pakinggan ang pakiusap ko sa'yo
Hindi ko na hinahangad ang yaman sa mundo
Pagmamahal mo lang ang tanging hinahanap ko
Maaari bang sana'y patawarin mo ako
Pagkat tayong dalawa ay sa isa't isa

Di na matitiis paghihirap ng dibdib
Sana'y nadarama mo rin ang paghihirap ko
At sana'y pakinggan ang pakiusap ko sayo

Hindi ko na hinahangad ang yaman sa mundo
Pagmamahal mo lang ang tanging hinahanap ko
Maaari bang sana'y patawarin mo ako

Pagkat tayong dalawa ay sa isa't isa

Pagmamahal mo lang ang tanging hinahanap ko
Maaari bang sanay patawarin mo ako
Pagkat tayong dalawa ay sa isa't isa

2011-05-10T08:32:00.000-07:00

tayong dalawa <3

2011-05-09T05:20:00.000-07:00

to the one i love , and will always love .

hey honey ! happy 13th monthsary yea :D though we cant celebrate it , we're always in each other's minds and heart . i love you so much . thank you for your unconditional love and support that you have given me throughout this 13mths . you have nvr once give up nor left me alone by myself . you're always there when i need you . We've been through so soo much , the ups and downs and da lefts and rights ;p i really need you . baby you knw i'll always be here for you no matter what , right ?
heheh .

you're so cute . and i love you the way you are . no matter how much you annoy me or no matter how much you make me angry , i can never bring myself to stop loving you . cause loving you is wad i do best . i really hope you'll come back to be my side . i cant wait for your ns to be over !

anyway happy 13th month hubby <3
i love you deeper than the ocean and wider than the world !
mwahx :*

you will always be part of me .

2011-05-09T01:14:00.000-07:00

cant wait for June Hols !

2011-05-01T03:30:00.000-07:00

soo bored.

2011-05-01T03:27:00.000-07:00

i <3 olives .
hearts hearts !
i love the feel of olive oil on my hair .
the retail therapy for my hair , definitely .

2011-04-30T08:00:00.000-07:00

out with babyboy <3
hhehe you nvr fail to make my day dar !
:)

i love you hubby mwahx :*
cant wait to go out with you again . me wna meeeet youuuuuu .
heheheheeeeeeeee you crazy boy .

2011-04-27T05:52:00.000-07:00

" Never stop knowing each other...never lose the "magic"...just like the first time you met that person. Keep reminding yourself, why did you fall in love with him/her in the first place ? "

chua rui xiang , i love you <3

2011-04-18T05:53:00.001-07:00

whoa i need a new good goooood camera so sooon
my camera sucks like uhhaaaaa

2011-04-17T02:44:00.000-07:00

2011-04-17T02:02:00.000-07:00

me me me me me

zoo was mad awesome .

next post : ZOO WITH MY XIANG XIANG <3

2011-04-14T07:27:00.000-07:00

"So, please, just be patient. I’m so afraid to care about someone. I know it seems like I’m this strong girl who can get through anything, but inside I’m very fragile. I’ve had so many things thrown at me, and each one has only made a crack. What I’m afraid of is shattering."

2011-04-14T07:22:00.000-07:00

I've got this crazy idea: we forget about what everyone else wants for us, and decide for ourselves what we want our lives to be.

People are going to disappoint you. I get that, I kind of expect that, but what if you wake up one day and realize that you’re the disappointment?

i dream of having a life , full with forever happiness , freedom .
doesnt everyone ?
i feel like no one's ever there for me .
no one cares .
no one bothers .
then i realised , i can never depend on anyone ( except for Allah ) .
i can only depend on myself .
friends ... well they are complicated . they come and go . one moment they are there , another & they are gone . friends are like menstruation ...

2011-04-13T08:21:00.000-07:00

tmr tmr .

and baby's coming back yahooo !!!
cant wait to go zoo with my hubby.
we'll get married there , okay babyboy ?
<3 i looooove you .

2011-03-30T07:39:00.000-07:00

Baby I MISS YOU .

yay 1 more fking day !

2011-03-28T09:39:00.000-07:00

Really , what is it about silence that makes people uncomfortable ?

I get very annoyed with Asian girls trying to be City girls . Face it , you're Asian .
It's not dat bad being an Asian girl anyway , we got da swag baby .

And sometimes , rather than ranting non stop about my life , i wish I could have spent the energy instead to study . I'm sure ranting will use up more energy .
Sometimes we need to learn to die to live . Then we'll know how to appreciate life instead of complaining so much about it . Complaining won't help missus ~

I'm done talking here . Time to chillaxx
Xxxx

Miss you babyboy . 2 more days <3

2011-03-26T21:08:00.000-07:00

see !
this is my babyboy , Recruit Chua Rui Xiang .
so cute :)
so different .
now tanned , skinnier , more muscular .
but , i still love him . so much <3

hope the days will fly faster baby .
i will miss you .
i <3 you , mwahx :*

2011-03-21T09:37:00.000-07:00

hehehe im doing this too !

50 facts about me :

1 ) My first priority is God , Allah .

2 ) I love Allah .

3 ) I love my FABmily !

4 ) I love my babyboy Xiang Xiang bigger than the size of the whole wide world, many many beautiful hearts for a beautiful person like you baby .

5 ) I love my beautiful bestie , LinSaid <3

6 ) I use the spacebar a lot , look .

7 ) I love singing .

8 ) My booboos are still growing.

9 ) I hearts POA hmwk !!

10 ) I hearts doing maths practices !

11 ) I have a thing with no.s .

12 ) No.11 scares me sometimes .

13 ) im afraid of the dark .

14 ) When im alone , i mostly think of death .

15 ) I am sarcastic , at times .

16 ) i <3 chocolates .

17 ) i love myself only at times .

18 ) trying to gain weight .

19 ) Hates it when people care bout their body too much .

20 ) hates girls who envy skinny girls .

21 ) thinks skinny is ugly .

22 ) i love odd no.s like hell !

23 ) i prefer left to right .

24 ) i am left handed .

25 ) I FREAKING LOVE THIS NO. <<<<<<<<<(25)

26 ) i love it cause its 5x5 .

27 ) i love 5 because it's the no. of family members in my family .

28 ) i am paranoid about health .

29 ) i get cold feets and sweaty palms on stage .

30 ) Low self-esteem .

31 ) low confidence .

32 ) i am not that friendly .

33 ) i love my life .

34 ) sometimes i dont love my life that much .

35 ) i appreciate .

36 ) i think too much .

37 ) i have many issues with my skin .

38 ) my knees are fucking ugly .

39 ) i can live without straighteners .

40 ) i can't live without straightened fringe .

41 ) i love foood .

42 ) i talk to myself .

42 ) i think im friggin funny !

43 ) only my sister truly truly truly appreciates and gets my sense of humour .

44 ) i hate my sister's eeyore .

45 ) i wna marry my babyboy Xiang Xiang :)

46 ) i loveeeeee to tease my Xiang Xiang !

47 ) i chased after Xiang Xiang first .

48 ) i was praying every nyt for Xiang Xiang to be mine :P

49 ) im still praying he will be mine . forever <3<3

50 ) i can't think anymore .

2011-03-18T09:38:00.000-07:00

funny :D

i feel like doing this harhar .

so it's like , all along i was living in a bubble .

this tiny bubble . reality is , that bubble was just a dream .

i lived in a dream to be your wife .

snap back to reality , im not . im just your average girlfriend .

2011-03-18T09:34:00.000-07:00

as promised , pictures uploaded :D

2011-03-17T08:56:00.000-07:00

will post pictures tmr !

heheh had a very nice day with the girls :)

and baby baby baby oh

baby baby baby oh

come on faster come home la , marry me :p

nyehheh .

1more week and i'll get to see you sweetie with your .. botak head ?

geeez . i miss ya .

<3 you many many my hubby mwahx :*

2011-03-16T09:59:00.000-07:00

my baby i miss you so much .
8 more days an this shit will be over .
i wna hold you tight hug you kiss you be witth you .
i wna feel you hug me tight . i miss it all .i really do .
i need you baby :)
ns aint that bad darling , see i told you so . did i ?

the reason my life is colorful is because of you . you gave me these wonderful memories i will never ever forget . i cant wait for you to book out !
hurrry , time hurry fly fast !

i <3 you baby . come back come back come back my hubby .

wifey needs you and misses you terribly :(

2011-03-12T08:09:00.000-08:00

baby 13 more days and you're back !
i really hope you're doing fine and i'll always pray for you darling .
i love you so much , but im missing you like tooooooooooooooooooooooooooot !
hurry come back in my arms . i need youuuu :)
i love you hubby <3 mwahx :* :#

2011-03-10T06:57:00.000-08:00

yea darla , 15more days !
i miss you .
<3 you hubby mwahx :*
hurry come back to my side darling . i need you .

2011-03-09T06:11:00.000-08:00

Change is an idiot

by Dexnell Gervais Peters

It is eight o'clock

Four hours from the time

As anxious as I am

Waiting is just sad

I fall asleep glad

Expecting to awake from the hands of someone

With hugs and kisses and gifts

Nothing ever goes wrong

Today it did

No hands approached me

I awoke on my own time

To meet nothing or no one by my side

The house empty

The town scanty

Change is an idiot.
credits to my beloved LinSaid :) thank you dear .

16 more loooooooooooooong days .

this is killing me .

shud i be sad dat there is still 16days more to go or be happy that its left with only 16days more to go ?

hmm.

i <3 you & miss you crx hubbbbbyyyyyyy

2011-03-08T09:13:00.000-08:00

Baby , happy 11mth ! We're gna be 12months which is a year in a month time ; ) we wud have celebrate our 11th monthsary if you were here .....I love You so much . Missing u .

2011-03-08T07:21:00.000-08:00

" Real love ? It is when you go through the hard trials of trust and sacrifices and still wake up every morning falling on love all over again . "

" oh come on , you're not that dependent on him right ? "

& thn i realised how dependent i am on you . I mean , my life revolves mostly around you . No shock is it for me to be dependent on you ? or maybe im just feeling this way cause i just miss you terribly . your hugs , smile , smooches .. the way you make me laugh and smile at the small tiny little things you do . the way i get angry just cause i want you to be da best . the way we can just share the silence comfortably .

17 days is like 17months or even years to me .
everyday i pray for your safety , i pray dat the time will pass so fast .

at the end of da day , i knw myself best . Only i knw why im feeling this way .

miss you :(
love you <3

2011-03-07T03:39:00.000-08:00

i miss you , XiangXiang smelly armpit :p

faster 3weeks past la . ) ;