remember all this?
in just 2 days, your feelings fade.
then wad did you feel for me for all those 20months?
for all those months you said you loved me,
is that just a lie? a beautiful lie.
i met your parents.
i loved your parents.
you talked bout the future,
so keen to tie a knot.
before you have asked me for countless of chances,
i let you prove yourself .
but i just needed that one chance
but you proved to me i didnt deserve any.
you accepted me back.
i had you again.
but things werent the same.
where did we go wrong?
i said wads on my mind,
i know it was my fault,
but wad was 20months?
compared to 2 days.
we talked on the phone that night,
i begged you once more,
you said you wont be happy,
you no more will have your freedom.
and then you said ' think bout the future. lets think far'.
but isnt dat wad we did , during those 20months?
you said im willing to convert, but my parents-i dont think so,
so was da words you told me before,
just a beautiful lie?
i hurt you umpteen times,
but you broke all your promises,
no words can describe the hurt i feel.
you're afraid to fall in love again,
but let me tell you; im more afraid.
on the last day, you made me feel,
that all those promises..all those 'future talks' were just words of a liar.
too late, too late you told me,
but let me tell you this,
i never thought you were too late,
when you asked me for those chances.
well, love will never be late.
in just 2 days, your feelings fade.
then wad did you feel for me for all those 20months?
for all those months you said you loved me,
is that just a lie? a beautiful lie.
girls, to marry someone who is very different from you in terms of race,religion and beliefs will be hard.
if you're as young as me, please dont take a guy's/boyfriend's word seriously even if you guys have been together for very long. as for me, i was hoping to only date one guy in my life. i wanted to last forever and prove to many that forever exist. that first love exist. but look wad happened. in these days, it's almost impossible. so girls, hold your head up high. there's so much more more to discover. i will take this is as a slap on my face, to wake up from reality and believe that forever dont last at all. you thought i was different from all the other girls, but it turns out..you're no different from all the other guys.
a reminder: never make promises if you plan to break it. 'promise' may just be a simple word, but compared to your broken promises, mine broken promises to you dont hurt as much.
sigh. for now, my heart is closed even though i admit, there's still an inch of love left.
loves.
2 comments:
hey sweetie. I'm facing a similar problem as you now. I guess I know how you feel. Cheer up k? Lots of love from me. <3 Stay strong dear.
thanks babe :)) you too, stay strong! let's just hold our heads high up.<3
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