Effass.

hi blog.
as im typing this, i can feel tears welling up in my eyes.

i dont know who to turn to. i dont think anyone will understand the situation im in. is it true, guys will always choose their bro's no matter what?
hais. sakit hati lagi. idk what i should do. decisions decisions. 2nd thoughts.
even if i leave your life, i doubt it will make any difference. i hate being emotionally attached to someone. if i can rewind time, i wish i'd never met you. wish i didnt even agree to go out on that night.
not doing me..nor you any good anyway.
not your fault though. im too sensitive. i think too much. worry too much. care too much. love too much.
keep telling myself i be fine i be fine. i try too hard. think it's time for me to even stop trying. i dont see the point anyway. or maybe.....i just prioritize the wrong people. keep telling myself to prioritize the right people but stupid heart is stubborn. im confused. to follow my heart or to go with my head?

goodnight.
ps: 4:19am isnt night.