Effass.

hi.
if you're reading this, i should prolly warn you that when you see a new blog post, it's prolly depressing.

so sad today, so sad yesterday, so sad tomorrow. i cant comprehend how i feel. i feel like, im not the girl i actually feel. like, though it's not entirely a facade, i......

i feel shit bout myself. not because im fishing for compliments. or anything of that sort. but because, i genuinely feel that way. i have to come to terms that someone out there is better than me, but i should always be the best for myself. how do i do that.

the people i hope i could count on to be there, and just, assure me, well they're always there for a little while and then they...just annoy me. or agitate me. on purpose. i really dont need this bunch of sick fools. how the fuck can someone make fun or laugh at someone else's...bitterness? havent it ever crossed your mind that i might actually really really feel like a fucking piece of a motherfucking shit? and that the least you can do is to respect how i feel?

im so sick and tired of how vicious humanity has turned into. the compassions gone. the empathy is gone. where's the fucking love? so sick and tired of people like you. really. and they tell me to stay away. but stubborn me, stubborn heart, you never listen do you?

maybe its time.
just maybe.