Baby I MISS YOU .

yay 1 more fking day !

Really , what is it about silence that makes people uncomfortable ?

I get very annoyed with Asian girls trying to be City girls . Face it , you're Asian .
It's not dat bad being an Asian girl anyway , we got da swag baby .

And sometimes , rather than ranting non stop about my life , i wish I could have spent the energy instead to study . I'm sure ranting will use up more energy .
Sometimes we need to learn to die to live . Then we'll know how to appreciate life instead of complaining so much about it . Complaining won't help missus ~

I'm done talking here . Time to chillaxx
Xxxx

Miss you babyboy . 2 more days <3

see !
this is my babyboy , Recruit Chua Rui Xiang .
so cute :)
so different .
now tanned , skinnier , more muscular .
but , i still love him . so much <3

hope the days will fly faster baby .
i will miss you .
i <3 you , mwahx :*

hehehe im doing this too !

50 facts about me :

1 ) My first priority is God , Allah .

2 ) I love Allah .

3 ) I love my FABmily !

4 ) I love my babyboy Xiang Xiang bigger than the size of the whole wide world, many many beautiful hearts for a beautiful person like you baby .

5 ) I love my beautiful bestie , LinSaid <3

6 ) I use the spacebar a lot , look .

7 ) I love singing . 

8 ) My booboos are still growing.

9 ) I hearts POA hmwk !!

10 ) I hearts doing maths practices !

11 ) I have a thing with no.s .

12 ) No.11 scares me sometimes .

13 ) im afraid of the dark . 

14 ) When im alone , i mostly think of death . 

15 ) I am sarcastic , at times . 

16 ) i <3 chocolates . 

17 ) i love myself only at times .

18 ) trying to gain weight .

19 ) Hates it when people care bout their body too much .

20 ) hates girls who envy skinny girls .

21 ) thinks skinny is ugly .

22 ) i love odd no.s like hell !

23 ) i prefer left to right .

24 ) i am left handed .

25 ) I FREAKING LOVE THIS NO. <<<<<<<<<(25)

26 ) i love it cause its 5x5 . 

27 ) i love 5 because it's the no. of family members in my family .

28 ) i am paranoid about health .

29 ) i get cold feets and sweaty palms on stage .

30 ) Low self-esteem . 

31 ) low confidence .

32 ) i am not that friendly .

33 ) i love my life .

34 ) sometimes i dont love my life that much .

35 ) i appreciate .

36 ) i think too much .

37 ) i have many issues with my skin .

38 ) my knees are fucking ugly .

39 ) i can live without straighteners .

40 ) i can't live without straightened fringe .

41 ) i love foood .

42 ) i talk to myself .

42 ) i think im friggin funny !

43 ) only my sister truly truly truly appreciates and gets my sense of humour .

44 ) i hate my sister's eeyore .

45 ) i wna marry my babyboy Xiang Xiang :)

46 ) i loveeeeee to tease my Xiang Xiang !

47 ) i chased after Xiang Xiang first . 

48 ) i was praying every nyt for Xiang Xiang to be mine :P

49 ) im still praying he will be mine . forever <3<3

50 ) i can't think anymore .

 

funny :D

i feel like doing this harhar .

so it's like , all along i was living in a bubble . 

this tiny bubble . reality is , that bubble was just a dream . 

i lived in  a dream to be your wife .

snap back to reality , im not . im just your average girlfriend . 

as promised , pictures uploaded :D

 

will post pictures tmr !

heheh had a very nice day with the girls  :)

<3

and baby baby baby oh

baby baby baby oh

baby baby baby oh

come on faster come home la , marry me :p

nyehheh . 

1more week and i'll get to see you sweetie with your .. botak head ?

geeez . i miss ya . 

<3 you many many my hubby mwahx :*

my baby i miss you so much  .
8 more days an this shit will be over .
i wna hold you tight hug you kiss you be witth you .
i wna feel you hug me tight . i miss it all .i really do .
i need you baby :)
ns aint that bad darling , see i told you so . did i ?

the reason my life is colorful is because of you . you gave me these wonderful memories i will never ever forget . i cant wait for you to book out !
hurrry , time hurry fly fast !

i <3 you baby . come back come back come back my hubby .

wifey needs you and misses you terribly :(

baby 13 more days and you're back !
i really hope you're doing fine and i'll always pray for you darling .
i love you so much , but im missing you like tooooooooooooooooooooooooooot !
hurry come back in my arms . i need youuuu :)
i love you hubby <3 mwahx :* :#

yea darla , 15more days !
i miss you .
<3 you hubby mwahx :*
hurry come back to my side darling . i need you .

Change is an idiot

by Dexnell Gervais Peters

It is eight o'clock

Four hours from the time

As anxious as I am

Waiting is just sad

I fall asleep glad

Expecting to awake from the hands of someone

With hugs and kisses and gifts

Nothing ever goes wrong

Today it did

No hands approached me

I awoke on my own time

To meet nothing or no one by my side

The house empty

The town scanty

Change is an idiot.
credits to my beloved LinSaid :) thank you dear .

16 more loooooooooooooong days . 

this is killing me . 

shud i be sad dat there is still 16days more to go or be happy that its left with only 16days more to go  ?

hmm.

i <3 you & miss you crx hubbbbbyyyyyyy

Baby , happy 11mth ! We're gna be 12months which is a year in a month time ; ) we wud have celebrate our 11th monthsary if you were here .....I love You so much . Missing u .

" Real love ? It is when you go through the hard trials of trust and sacrifices and still wake up every morning falling on love all over again . "

" oh come on , you're not that dependent on him right ? "

& thn i realised how dependent i am on you . I mean , my life revolves mostly around you . No shock is it for me to be dependent on you ? or maybe im just feeling this way cause i just miss you terribly . your hugs , smile , smooches .. the way you make me laugh and smile at the small tiny little things you do . the way i get angry just cause i want you to be da best . the way we can just share the silence comfortably .

17 days is like 17months or even years to me .
everyday i pray for your safety , i pray dat the time will pass so fast .

at the end of da day , i knw myself best . Only i knw why im feeling this way . 


miss you :(
love you <3

i miss you , XiangXiang smelly armpit :p

faster 3weeks past la . ) ;

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Babyboy ,


now dat you're gna be gone for 2weeks , i feel myself not complete . It's like half of me is gone . I really hope this 2 weeks will past like crazy . All i want is you , i wna be with you . i need you . i need you . i need you . im sorry im crying as im typing this out but i cant help but to feel all lost and incomplete . Its true what they say that ; you will only treasure the ones you love once they are gone . how i regret all the troubles ( e.g. moodswings , moodswings , moodswings ) i caused you . im so sorry . When you're in NS , remember that i will always be your other half waiting for you to come back to complete me , my one and only darla . I will miss you terribly and i wonder why God have chosen to make all this happen . Perhaps this is a test for us . im sure we'll pass this test with flying colors :P

but anyway , people may laugh at me after reading this for getting so emotional . But hey , baby my feelings for you is genuinely real . i may deny & say that i will brave , i will be strong and not cry , but deep down inside me , i knw i will , definitely will . During this 11months with you , i felt only one thing about this memories ; beautiful . You made me realise how wonderful life is . you made me learn humour . you made me realise every single thing no else could . You made me overcome my fear of holding a hamster , touching a cat . Lastly , you made me realise Love . You sayang , is da most beautiful present God Allah has ever given to me . You're a perfect beautiful gift from heaven . im very thankful for that .

Baby we're gna be 12mths ( a year ) nxt month ~ im excited . everything feels so fast ! im grateful and really thankful that you have given me the most beautiful memories no else can give . i love you so much . You knw that i will always be here with you and for you , thru thick and thin , smooth or hard ( ? ) . i will always be by your side supporting you no matter what . Yes it's tough , but we knw that we will make it through . Those promises i have made , will nvr be broken . so baby , i just wna say that my love for you is nvr enough and i wna love you for as long as i live . you're so lovely and beautiful just like a precious rare gem to me . Baby me will always be with you and you're always in my mind . No words can describe my love for you .

Have fun in NS , and make me proud . I'll pray dat you'll be da best recruit ! Please work hard and give your all . Do not get in trouble okay . Put in your effort . Take good care of yourself and drink lots of water . stay healthy ! PLS TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF DONT MAKE ME WORRIED BIG BOY .

cant wait to see your botak head baby ! i love you so deep . mwahx :*

I love you . <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <#