so first & second day of school has been fine.
i miss bishan ite.
amk ite is really huge.....& tiring......& there's 724297973427789379874 people. im just exaggerating.
3rd day tomorrow.
123leggo.

Cups Lyrics  

by Anna Kendrick

[Verse 1:]
I got my ticket for the long way ‘round
Two bottle ‘a whiskey for the way
And I sure would like some sweet company
And I’m leaving tomorrow, wha-do-ya say?

[Chorus 1:]
When I’m gone
When I’m gone
You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone
You’re gonna miss me by my hair
You’re gonna miss me everywhere, oh
You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone

[Verse 2:]
I’ve got my ticket for the long way ‘round
The one with the prettiest of views
It’s got mountains, it’s got rivers, it’s got sights to give you shivers
But it sure would be prettier with you

[Chorus 2:]
When I’m gone
When I’m gone
You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone
You’re gonna miss me by my walk
You’re gonna miss me by my talk, oh
You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone

hi blog.
as im typing this, i can feel tears welling up in my eyes.

i dont know who to turn to. i dont think anyone will understand the situation im in. is it true, guys will always choose their bro's no matter what?
hais. sakit hati lagi. idk what i should do. decisions decisions. 2nd thoughts.
even if i leave your life, i doubt it will make any difference. i hate being emotionally attached to someone. if i can rewind time, i wish i'd never met you. wish i didnt even agree to go out on that night.
not doing me..nor you any good anyway.
not your fault though. im too sensitive. i think too much. worry too much. care too much. love too much.
keep telling myself i be fine i be fine. i try too hard. think it's time for me to even stop trying. i dont see the point anyway. or maybe.....i just prioritize the wrong people. keep telling myself to prioritize the right people but stupid heart is stubborn. im confused. to follow my heart or to go with my head?

goodnight.
ps: 4:19am isnt night.

everything is shit bullfucking shit fuck all of you guys seriously i've had enough & i am so done with everyone & everything hahahahhaah i love my life so fucking much nothing good comes out of it hahahaha i love 2013

day 1 of 2013

hi.
im back.
it's the first day of the year 2013 & i wish everyone a very happy new year.

ive decided to blog again because i really need  to let out my thoughts, my feelings..i just need let out everything even if it means letting it out to a...blog.

many things have taken place. feels like im losing myself. it's like i find myself and then i lose myself again & the vicious cycle continues. im on the verge of giving up. im tired, exhausted of myself. im tired of my constant negative thoughts. my thoughts are never positive. it's not like im not trying. i am trying. i just feel lost. how do i find myself back. where have i lost myself.
im not trying to gain sympathy nor am i seeking for anyone's attention. i really feel this way. i wake up feeling empty. cry myself to sleep. i've no idea what's bothering me really.

you know, i wish people will take me seriously. i just wanna cry......i just wanna breakdown and cry. i want someone to hug me. i need someone to be there for me. wish i can be happier. it's not that im not thankful for my life right now. im just sad. used to be so optimistic about myself, about life, about everything. but now it's like the world is coming down on me. the world is coming down on me & i cant find a reason to be loved............................

here's my favourite song of all time.
can't embed the video i dont know why what a moron. but yea, love the lyric.

arms//christina perri

I never thought that you would be the one to hold my heart
But you came around and you knocked me off the ground from the start

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go
You put your arms around me and I'm home

How many times will you let me change my mind and turn around
I can't decide if I'll let you save my life or if I'll drown

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

The world is coming down on me and I can't find a reason to be loved
I never wanna leave you but I can't make you bleed if I'm alone

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

I tried my best to never let you in to see the truth
And I've never opened up
I've never truly loved 'Till you put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go


I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

You put your arms around me and I'm home