Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is

I'd catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

You said you loved me, you're a liar
'Cause you never, ever, ever did, baby

But darling, I'd still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

No, you won't do the same
You wouldn't do the same
Ooh, you never do the same
No, no, no, no

reading this certain lyrics of Grenade...just makes me tear.

 the bus rides we had

 the only soccer match i went

 marina barrage days

 macdonalds dates..

 last year's new years eve

 amk hub dates

 after schooldates

 study dates

 my birthday!

 seoul garden

 the night before ns..remember how much we cried?

 the day after 3 weeks of your enlistment in ns

 just us.

 remember we took this using macbook?

goofy times.

remember all this?

in just 2 days, your feelings fade.
then wad did you feel for me for all those 20months?
for all those months you said you loved me,
is that just a lie? a beautiful lie.

i met your parents.
i loved your parents.
you talked bout the future,
so keen to tie a knot.

before you have asked me for countless of chances,
i let you prove yourself .
but i just needed that one chance
but you proved to me i didnt deserve any.

you accepted me back.
i had you again.
but things werent the same.
where did we go wrong?

i said wads on my mind,
i know it was my fault,
but wad was 20months?
compared to 2 days.

we talked on the phone that night,
i begged you once more,
you said you wont be happy,
you no more will have your freedom.

and then you said ' think bout the future. lets think far'.
but isnt dat wad we did , during those 20months?
you said im willing to convert, but my parents-i dont think so,
so was da words you told me before,
just a beautiful lie?

i hurt you umpteen times,
but you broke all your promises,
no words can describe the hurt i feel.

you're afraid to fall in love again,
but let me tell you; im more afraid.
on the last day, you made me feel,
that all those promises..all those 'future talks' were just words of a liar.

too late, too late you told me,
but let me tell you this,
i never thought you were too late,
when you asked me for those chances.
well, love will never be late.

in just 2 days, your feelings fade.
then wad did you feel for me for all those 20months?
for all those months you said you loved me,
is that just a lie? a beautiful lie.

girls, to marry someone who is very different from you in terms of race,religion and beliefs will be hard.
if you're as young as me, please dont take a guy's/boyfriend's word seriously even if you guys have been together for very long. as for me, i was hoping to only date one guy in my life. i wanted to last forever and prove to many that forever exist. that first love exist. but look wad happened. in  these days, it's almost impossible. so girls, hold your head up high. there's so much more more to discover. i will take this is as a slap on my face, to wake up from reality and believe that forever dont last at all. you thought i was different from all the other girls, but it turns out..you're no different from all the other guys.

a reminder: never make promises if you plan to break it. 'promise' may just be a simple word, but compared to your broken promises, mine broken promises to you dont hurt as much.
sigh. for now, my heart is closed even though i admit, there's still an inch of love left.

loves.

in life, you should always remember
1) Allah
2) Family
3) The ones who were there for you when you were at the lowest.

too late. you said it's too late for me. so why should i hang on?

KAU BODOH PE. lol. kidding.

YAY IM SO GLAD YOU'RE GNA GET YOUR FREEDOM AND HAPPINESS!
tmr. cant wait for tmr.  heeheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
HAPPY ADVANCED NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE! and never ever eveeer let one person ruin your day.
heh, yupps, he had no more love for me. if he's with me,there'll be no happiness nor freedom forrrrrrrrr him.
hhhah so funny ryt, just 2 days ago i was your happiness but 2 days pass and TADAAAAAAAA!
lol. k la enough bout you.
just a reminder: sometimes you gotta think for yourself and be selfish. your happiness will always come first.
xie xie ni dajie Ain<3 for consoling me.....fuck cant believed i just begged a guy?! i cried like a fucking whale lol. k no link. byeeeeee.

mwahx mwahx:*

u cant accept me when im at my worst? sure you dont deserve me at my best. you dont deserve a girl like me :) you lost me, i didnt lose you.
hahahahah it's like i cried so much, loved you with all my heart, do everything out of love, but look wad i got?
k la..cant force love. gave u soo many chances. i begged you twice....i didnt get a single chance.

so girls, listen to me! be strong. cry your heart out. you will feel so good after dat! cause in life, you're so gna meet these kinda boys. but who gives a heck?
i remind you again, a guy who doesnt love you...dont deserve your heart!
just wna tell you, HAPPY NEW YEAR i will survive like how u survived 2 days without me ;)
teheeeeee

and dont beg me. cause when i beg you, did you spare a thought for me?

YOU JUST LOST A GIRL WHO LOVED YOU WITH ALL HER HEART.
hope you wont ditch other girls..yeh. cause what goes around,comes back around.

loves.

this shall be my motivation from now onwards :)

hi guys. it's 12:47pm now. gotta head to school around 1:45pm...to get my eagles award.
hahhh yay $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$!

k la. so imma sidetrack abit here. although i knw i dont wna bore u guys with sad stories...sad posts and all, but right now i have no one to pour out my feelings to..apart from my sister.
 but i seriously hate liars.
i mean what makes people think that lying wouldnt make someone angry right. i mean angrier.
sigh. k la, i have lied before...but if u dont want me to lie,why not u stop lying first right.
right now, just need time alone to get used to being just by myself. blame myself, for being too dependent. sigh writing this out is already making me tear.
keep telling myself, life doesnt revolve around you only.
that i can survive...i mean i will survive.
hhaha whether you're reading this is or not, i knw you'll only gna say that im selfish.
but i dont give a fuck.
i find that even though i have a life, i just dont live my life. i have to start thinking about myself.
hais. seriously, i cant wait to start studying again. so i can keep myself occupied.
i wonder if holidays is a blessing or a curse.
cant wait for 2012.
cant wait for school.

what i dont understand is, even though we're friends, doesnt mean i cant care and advise you...or discourage you to go to certain places..knowing the person you are, i have the rights as a good friend to give you such advises. and by doing that, it really shows dat i still care. but you took it wrongly. ' we're just friends what. so why do you care? ' this sentence keeps playing in my head. let me tell you, really, it's because we're friends dat i care. i advise you, but if u dont wna take my advice thn just go ahead.
ah wadever it is, you can consider everything to be over already.
im gonna move on with my life..even though i knw it's gna be tough for me. even though i knw you wont completely banish and dissapear from my heart..memories will forever stay. and for da last time, im gonna tell you this, i still love you.

if only you would understand.

SORRY IF I BORE YOU GUYS WITH THIS PATHETIC POST.
but have a kind heart. hahahaha k wads da link.

loves.

HI GUYS!!!
i just posted a new cover. i made a cover of Turning Tables by Adele.
you can view it in my facebook profile yeh!

some pictures.

both are taken today cause im super bored.
mehhhh..

k la i really dont knw wad to blog about,
my blog is so fucking dead. same as my formspring lol.
imma chaooooooo now.

heheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee goodbye and have a lovely day you lovely people.

loves.

Hello guys!
okay so one of my friends who prefers to be Anon posted this on my formspring .

Hey, I'm not the anon that asked for the selling post, but what you posted was more of a haul and review. A selling post is to sell your preloved items, such as clothes etc. Loved the haul and review though <3 i'm your friend but I'll stay anon for now :P

 omg i seriously feel like a moron la! hahahah. sorry to the Anon who wanted a selling post. i've got it wrong! okay so a selling post will be up by next week.....that is if i can find any items i would like to sell. or maybe i shud hold up a Giveaway right! hahahahah. but wait for it. be up by nxt week i promise ;)

 

and thank you to the anonymous friend for correcting me! appreciate it babe <3

ask/tell me anything @ http://www.formspring.me/iqaizsm

loves.

 

Hello guys! I just posted a random cover (jar of hearts) in my Facebook a/c . Listen to it if u wna . Its just for da fun of it anyway. Lastly, enjoy :D

http://www.formspring.me/iqaizsm

Haul and Review.

 okay i think this is how a selling post looks like...right?
so here you go, Anon!

 facial peel off cucumber mask! okay i cant really say much cause i just bought it ytd. but i heard cucumber is really good for your skin :) I just used it yesterday night. it's this glue-like gel kinda thing. and it smells really good surprisingly! so you have to leave it on for about 5-10 mins. and it dries up real fast! it's not a hassle at all to peel it off cause it's easy to come off. after washing my face ,it really feels refreshing and my skin is very silky and soft and smooth! i didnt say dat just cause it's written at the back of the product okay. it's for real :) with it's long lasting effect, it's affordable and only cost $8.20. you can find it in Guardian! and i'll have to rate this product 8/10 .

 as you can see, this hair product is called Essence. unlike th the previous product, i have used this since last year! thanks to my mother for introduing it :) so to use this product, you have to appl it after drying your hair. it's just this not too thick liquid. the smell's good. it makes your hair smooth and not frizzy! i mean if your hair is super frizzy thn it still leaves ur hair a lil frizzy but not as much! it cost $38. i usually buy it at Ang Mo Kio central K1 SALON! i have no idea where else to get it. kinda expensive to me, but the whole bottle can last for 2-3months.a 9/10 DEFINITELY!

 i have been using this product for around 2-3months? i use it when i have acne. it is this green color coarse sand like substance. it looks gross but it is not smelly at all. it helps in preventing acne occurrence on my face. like hen i have pimple(s) on my face, i apply this to my face and after it dries and after i wash it up, the next day, either the pimple will be gone or it is not as visible! it is affordable and it cost around $10-11. yes i definitely recommend this product as it not only helps in reducing my pimples,it also leaves your skin feeling smooth :) i'll rate this product 8.5/10 .

 if you loveeeee perfumes, i suggest you get this one! it is Juicy Couture. and it is really small. it's not the kind of spray pefume but to use it, you have to dab it instead. although it is small, it last for quite a long time as you onl need to dab a fewm times and th smell would already be super strong! it smells sweet...but not too sweet? like, the small wud definitely not annoy anyone. i got it for free so i have no idea how much i is! this perfume...i'll rate it 9/10 .

okay this is the acne patch! im not sure of the price though cause boyfriend gave it to me :) okay that was out of point. you can find it in any beauty stores! so the point is, you knw when u see an acne and you're dying to just squeeeze it out?? but then you're afraid of leaving any acne scars which may last forever? well this would definitely help! because sometimes ur pimple might not be ripe enough for you to squeeze out. so when you put this on, it helps to ripen ur pimple! so without using much effort, you are able to squeeze out the yellow-thingy. and the yellow thing will come out and you dont even have to use like a lot of force! however, sometimes, i think your pimple might be too stubborn and thus, this wont help. therefore, to me this product is just 7.5/10 .

this is a maybelline product! it is a gel-liner. i used to detest gel liners cause i thought it was hard to use and kinda  hassle. but after trying it for the first time, i absolutely love it! it're really realy dark and you know sometimes when you use liquid liners and when it dries up,it becomes kinda glossy...for this one, it looks really matt and not glossy. if you're good at painting,i am really really sure you will do a very good job in drawing the perfect eye liner for your eyes:) it costs $19.90and it's worth it cause it can last for long. you an find it in any beauty stores. but the only bad thing is that when you remove the eyeiner and wash your face with the facial wash, there will be kinda like a smudged black stain under your eyes which will not go away until the next day when u wash ur face again. thus, this product will be given an 8/10 .

if you have dark eye rings or slight eyebags....this is your solution! however, i have to say that it does not provide complete full coverage. yes it's a compact make up but i use it to hide my dark eye rings. it helps in reducing the visibility.  it will last for very very long as it is able to hide your flaws even by using a very small amount of it. it cost around $20++ ! can be found in any beauty stores too :) i'll rate this product 8/10. tip:use a brush instead of the sponge to conceal your dark eyerings/ eyebags so as to be more precise.

i use this like all the time whenever i head out! it's long lasting. the color is really pretty :) you just have to put a little amount and the color stands out already. however it doesnt come with a blusher brush. the color will stick on your face for as long as you dont remove it. what i like bout it is the color looks natural...well it's more like depending on how da color is. easy to remove. and it doesnt look smudgy..you know? i'll give it a 9/10 !

very cheap angle brush!! it's soft ad very precised. i use it for my eyebrows. like to make your eyebrow stand out even more, use the brush, apply some concealer on the brush, and then apply it on the outer of your eyebrow. k im so bad at explaining but i hope you get what i mean yeh! it's $3.90 and it can be found in any cheap department stores like Pink Beauty! 9/10 !!

this is my all time favourite mascara ! i think you can find it anywhere; guardian,watsons etc etc. unsure how much it is but i think iit should be lesser than $20 ? it sits on your eyelashes well and it is waterproof! doesnt smudge even if your face touches the water. it does volumize the eyelashes but the effect is kinda minimal . anyway i love it becauseof the 'brush'? like it's very precise(omg how many times have i used that word) ! one coat is enough anyway. too much of coating will make your eyelash look too congested or smth. 8.5/10

before i use the Maybelline gel eyeliner, i have been using the FUSO liquid eyeliner. VERY CHEAP it costs only like $5 bux or so. can be found in SINMA or smth. really dark too but the only thing i hate is that when it dries up, it looks glossy and not matt...unlike the maybelline gel liner. the brush is not as soft and therefore, when you apply eyeliner, itdoesnt get too wobbly. too wobbly=being a mess. It's good, affordable...definitely your ideal eyeliner if you're tight on your budget! rate this 7.5/10!

the thing that i love about this lipstick is that it has a lil bit of oil. so your lips wont be too dry. the color sticks on your lips for very long. and it is easy to remove when thr's a slight mistake! but if you keep on pursing your lips repeatedly , then it will get kinda irritating as your lips will get dry and the dry skin of your lips will get peeled off along with the lipstick. aint sure of the price thought. i will rate this 6/10 only because i rarely use lipstick !

so that's it! i hope this is how a selling post will look like. heeehee. ask me questions at formspring http://www.formspring.me/iqaizsm

loves.