Effass.

tired. im tired. im so tired.
tiring..this is tiring. can it get any more tiring?
am i finally giving up? has it already been too much for me?
numb so numb
usually the heart says silly but the head says smart
but this time both says...to think for myself.
hurt? you ask me if it'll hurt?
it will...but even through all these months, hurt never spared me.
so what difference will it make?

when you finally realised that you've been thinking that the problem was this but it turns out that the problem don't lie with that...that's when you decide if it's time to finally just...walk away.
true strength is doing the right thing even if you don't want to do it.

i thought i knew you. i really wish i knew you. she wasnt the problem...well may 25% but 100% was another thing.
problem is..i never really knew you. not that i didnt want to, i'd very much wanted to, but you didnt let me.
all along, there was this barrier.you're so afraid of falling..of letting go.
no, i think what you're most afraid of was....what if you become just like me?

i can't allow myself to be in this whirlpool. it's too...rmheoehiormw
idk anymore. i just dont.
spare me the sorrow i deserve something better..yea at least something i truly deserve.
just not this. not anymore.