Effass.

It's scary - how you can mean the world to somebody one day , and nothing the next . As if the days leading up to this don't count for anything .

 we all have " wants " in our lives .

but since we are only , no i am only to entertain the " needs " , i shall . 

i hereby pray to god , Allah 

i need more space

i need more freedom

i need an open minded mom

i need a mother who motivates me

i need a mother who cares for me but at the same time , allows me to enjoy freedom 

i need a not-stuck-in-the-old-time-thinking parents 

i need more money

i need my bf

i need bf to love me more

i need myself to be more understanding towards bf

i need my sister to stop complaining bout love

i need my brother to grow up more

i need my friends to be my listening ear

i need my friends to take me more seriously

i need my family to give me freedom

i need freedom . i need freedom . 

i pray to god for my own freedom . 

im 15 . going 16 very soon .

freedom . freedom ? 

why is it so hard for me to have freedom ? 

why cant i have sleepovers ? 

why cant i go to sleepovers ? 

why must i have a tight curfew ? 

why why why why why 

freedom . just what i need at the moment . 

god pls answer my prayers . 

amin .